So, I'm not so good at this "keeping-up-with-a-blog" thing, it is becoming more and more evident...
Sometimes I find myself telling people when they ask about our adoption that "Most of the time, we are really happy and excited." So, therefore it goes without saying that there are those times... the ones that are other than "Most of the time..." where we don't feel so happy and excited. And, I can only really speak for myself, but during those times, I feel.. SCARED.
I said no to adoption for so long for only one real reason and that was fear. And, even though we have moved through that fear, it is not something we have left behind us in the dust, never to be felt again.
I still have my days (or at least my moments of my days) where I wonder what in the world we are doing. I wonder how in the heck we are ever going to afford this and how we are going to deal with all of the challenges we learn about in our home study training. I worry if I am a good enough mom to come anywhere close to the moms I meet and read about who have gone through it before. I worry about my girls and what will change...
BUT... Then, we do just what we have done before. Just what we did in the beginning when we first said, "yes". We MOVE. We keep moving and by moving we make it through the moments of fear and doubt about all of the "what ifs".
We sang this song at church today and it was such an inspiration to me. I think before I sang halfway through the first verse, I was grabbing a pen and paper to frantically try to write down all of the lyrics since, once again, He was telling me exactly what I needed to hear!
So, I am going to post it here for all of you to enjoy. I hope it will be as inspiring to all of you in whatever area God is calling you to step out in Faith.
And, if there is anyone out there who is feeling a tug toward adoption, please feel free to ask me any questions you may have. I am by no means an expert. I find myself having to try to find answers to questions all the time. But, I have met quite a lot of people who DO know a lot and who have experienced all of the amazing things God does through this process. I would love to talk to anyone who feels that God might be placing this calling on their lives.
The orphan crisis is something I find on my mind constantly now. God wants homes and families for these lonely, hurting, and languishing children. Outside the US and within our country. He needs us to be those families. If our family can do it, you can do it, too. We are not rich. We are not special. There are times when our faith is very weak. There are times when I could do so much better of a job with the children God has already given me. Still, I know there is a child out there... children out there... who need our family... Who need more than our family...
So, on that note...Here is your musical inspiration for the evening:
Hillsong - Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)
